intertwined by dreams and realities
May 2, 2006
I woke up with a call by mom telling that Tito lito just died. Tito lito was a great man towards me. It has been a year since I last saw him; and it is sad that it now that he is shall I see him again. He was a second father to me. He was the one who prayed for me to pass UPCAT. He was the one who tells me stories about life. He was the one who prays for me every time I in need. I never imagined him being gone too soon.
The whole week before this day, I had dreams regarding someone’s death. I had experiencedall the of superstitions in my dreams regarding death – losing a tooth and the like. I had already a feeling that tito lito was going to die. Before this day, mom and I even had a argument regarding tito lito’s case. And this day, I had the final dream about death which coincidentally is the day that tito lito died.
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Today is our fiesta. We had a little gathering in malaking bahay. Sadly, we are just few – the family is just complete. Vinizza, kuya Micheal and I bonded. We talked about the things we missed about our lives. Kuya Micheal told me about a certain fight in quarto grill that hurt some people.
May 3, 2006
Mom and I went to the market and bought some food for dinner. And mom thought tilapia would be a good dinner. And we brought from this guy – who is cute in fairness. He sells fresh fish – so fresh that it was even jumping. I even tried running after the 2 jumping tilapias. It was indeed fun and funny. Mom even interviewed the guy – he was married and has two kids. Si mama talaga - people person.
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I talked to jasper. I told him about the incident in quarto grill and he told me that he together with his friends were the one involved in the fight. Also, he was asking me out. But all through out the conversation I realized that he was a player and not worth talking to so I realized to get rid of him in my life. Rude in a way but I don’t want to be involved to him anymore.
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I text ivan telling him I miss him.
Me: uy, mr. g. miss na kita..hehe
Ivan: wahehehe..thx..same here..hehe
Me: kamusta ka naman?..musta bicoL?
Ivan: ok naman.kaw?.
Then..he called me. It lasted five minutes but it was worth it. We had a fast talk.hehe. He told me he did not want to text anymore so he called me. We texted until I got no more load. By the way, I did not really have load I secretly pasaload from kuya’s cp. – how nice of me. haha. Afterwards, we texted again til he said goodnight. Ivan is sweet in his own ways – sending his regards to my family.
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I talked to kat b. and he told me to ignore jasper anymore. If I did not want hi then I should avoid him. I should not waste time befriending him.
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Bezzy dian texted me telling me she has a problem. I tried calling but she didn’t answer. She said she is not in the mood to talk and I respected her. She is having problems with her so-called-friends in her current school.
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Mom and I had some bonding moments that lasted til 3:30 in the morning. Mom shared her memories in her teenage years – love, silliness, kalokohans. We had a great time – laughing and getting kilig. I love you mama.
May 4, 2006
Mom and I suppose to go to the market but I woke up late. So we just bought some cooked food.
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I’m currently reading da vinci code and I made it a goal to finish it before the movie will be shown.
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Jigs called at home asking me to go to his birthday tomorrow in San Fabian. I’m not sure if it’s a swimming party?.. I still don’t have a gift for him.
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I laundried the clothes I could possibly need for jigs party, hope it dries in time for the party.
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I talked to MG Kuya lester just asking how he is. Well, he was hot headed at the moment and I started to joke. He became calm but still I could sense he wasn’t fine. He started flirting with me but I changed the topic again with a joke. I just want him as a friend and nothing more.
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Currently, while I am writing this I am talking to my bezzy dian. Making up for the times we missed in each others lives.
and i'm eating pancakes..cheap pancakes..yummy..such cheap thrills..
... currently listening to : Telepono by Sugarfree
...currently reading: da vinci code by dan brown
